Day 18: Rain and Turtles

Yesterday, I saved a Turtle! Maybe I saved a turtle... I didn't think anything of it yesterday but today I wonder. Did I make a difference? As I was coming home from eating dinner out a Turtle as crossing the road. I watched as a couple cars just drove right by it and so I stopped and put my hazards on and picked it up and carried it to the other side of the road where there was ditch with grass.

Firstly, I wasn't sure if I was even supposed to pick up turtles. Secondly, the person I think of when I see turtles is Mr. Obliques or the guy from afar and is probably going to aquire more nick names by the time I get to see him again so I apologize for any confusion... same guy! Thirdly, what the heck is a Box turtle crossing the road in a suburb?

Strangely, I wasn't that affraid of pick up the turtle since he retracted his head and limbs almost inviting me to assist him. I got a thumbs up from the old folks who drove by which was a great sign. I looked up what the Turtle represented totem wise and it said "wisdom, patience and guidance. Now I know I could sound totally silly assuming this connection however, someone once told me that when you are lined up or aligned with the universe it seems like life is more meaningful and their are less coincidences.

I think the turtle was a sign of "the guy from far away" not just because he studied turtles in college and when he geeks out on them it totally turns me on but because I was able to identify it as a Box Turtle which is the type of turtle he ungoed a 2 year project on discovering their mating patterns relating to this one pond. Furthermore, since Friday was a day of reckoning between us, with his voicing how we have developed expectations naturally and how over whelming it has become for him. Well the turtle has showed me patience is the key to seeing this relationship through. We are far away and though I am totally ultra when it comes to anything I do with him and this awkward situation I have to cultivate some patience and just chill out more which will only create more of a charge one way or another.

The rain! Got to work and noticed a sound banging on the warehouse door and was shocked that it just started to down poor. My first thought was back to my practice and how I was glad that rain was not going to influence my commitment to my practice. Second I thought was "god is in the rain" the quote from "V for Vendetta." Not sure why rain means so much to me but the way rain and wind feel on my skin puts me in a place of ease. I feel held, small, and nurtured all at the same time. So if there was a form for the formless it would be represented as wind or rain for me.

Thank you for the rain today a remarkable surprise to start off my week with a shinny newness.

Song of the Day:

Day 17: Dedication

dedication
ded·i·ca·tion
[ dèddi káysh'n ]
NOUN
1. devotion: the quality of being devoted or committed to something
"her dedication to duty"

commitment
com·mit·ment
[ kə mítmənt ]
NOUN
1. responsibility: something that takes up time or energy, especially an obligation
"family commitments"
2. loyalty: devotion or dedication, e.g. to a cause, person, or relationship

Thought I would begin by defining the difference and similarities to yesterday's "commitment" and today's "dedication" themes. Like you see above dedication is the quality of... or the fruit or the state of... however, it feels for you its a bit more engraved than just commitment. So yes, I showed up today and though my teacher had to be late I realized that I have to be on time for me to follow through with something. The time each day helps me more like helps my OCD tendancies of planning to just know how to organize the rest of my day. My teacher was most understanding and agreed that we would both show up at that time or if we are late commit to finishing on our own.

Like I realized this is a personal commitment though I do have a partner who is willing to attempt the same goal we can't do the work for one another. It helps to have that person across from you who is sweating and you can speak to regarding your experience. Yet, they are just a mirror and ever important mirror because they listen and can reflect back with words and observations. A regular mirror just bounces back light.

Today's practice felt better than yesterdays overall. A couple of things I forgot to mention yesterday about how I decided to intensify this practice for myself over the week are the following:
1. During the arm balance sequence I will increase the holding of these by ONE breath each day... the first day was 5 breathes
2. During the drop back portion I will increase the amount by 10 each day... first day was 10 dropbacks

Every more dedicated today even though I am completely sore and tender in my body's experience. MSM, calcium, ibuprophen, and lots of water and sleep are my remedies for keeping this at bay.

Song of the day: Backside Grid part 2 by Plan B (US)